Welcoming 2016

It is officially 2016!!

  I don't know about you but I am sure happy to say goodbye to 2015 and leave it in the past where it belongs. This is the start of a new chapter in my life and a newer more improved ME. I know, I know what you are thinking..they all say that. New year = New years resolution but then by March we have all grown tired of the diets and exercise, or not drinking/smoking, or even trying to save extra money by budgeting. Not this time, not for me, for me it's much bigger than a resolution. 2016 will be about me finding the true meaning of who Whitney is. What makes her happy? What makes her tick? It is a road to recovery for me from mental illness. I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder with anxiety in September 2015. Not much time later I was being hospitalized after a suicide attempt. No one could understand "why" and I honestly don't think anyone will ever fully be able to understand "why". What I do know now after months of Doctor visits that a major factor for me was an undiagnosed dormant bipolar disorder gene that was stimulated by my antidepressants. Learning this was difficult for many reasons but the most disheartening for me was that the stigma that goes along with mental illness had affected my family. Affected them so much that they had never really talked about their mental health diagnosis. I could have lost my life because my family did not feel comfortable enough to be honest about who they are and the struggles they are facing in life. Well luckily God made me a loud and proud kind of girl who is always happy to share my life struggles and achievements if it means helping someone else be more comfortable in their own skin and face their own struggles. Who knows maybe even learn from my bumpy path. God made us all perfectly imperfect, to live the best life we can with the cards that have been dealt. Even if that means playing a little GoFish along the way to get the hand just right. So this is my blog it is about me, my life, my achievements, and my struggles. I am 27, a Daughter, a Sister, a Best friend, and so many more titles but the most important is; I am a single, God loving, Mother who struggles with mental health, weight, and relationships but I know with God by my side 2016 will be a great year! Hope you enjoy my blog..my journey to finding me.

      

Till next time..

         Whitney