The meaning of a Warr;or

Good Morning,

  I hope you all have had your morning cup of coffee by now. If so I am jealous because I am on day 5 of no coffee and no soda pop. Crazy I know but I need to get healthy and spend less money on something not nourishing my body. I have actually been working on this post since Wednesday but since it is such a sensitive and important subject to my life right now I have read, and reread it over, and over editing it and changing it. I have been worried about what my friends and family will think. I am now here looking at it again on Saturday morning and after a long prayer I have decided it is time to post it. So here goes nothing.. 

October 25th, 2015

My whole life changed in that one day..
                                             One moment...One Decision... 

  I wish I could tell you all what I was feeling but I wouldn't wish it upon anyone to try to understand that dark of a place. I wish I could tell you what I was thinking but then again I wouldn't want anyone to feel the "crazy" I felt in my thoughts. I don't want to get stuck in the bad details but I feel it is only fair to start from the moment God took back over my life. The ride (all alone) in the ambulance to the hospital was the longest, darkest moment in my life. Not only was I regretting the decision I made but feared the days to come and conversations that were going to take place if I made it through. I may have been unconscious but my head was still spinning and thoughts were still so loud but now they were of hope and fear. My story did not end and I have chosen to start fighting to live my life. A great, beautiful and fulfilling life. I have chosen to be a Warr;or. No I didn't spell warrior wrong I meant to spell it with a semicolon. For those of you who may be unaware and/or living under a rock all of 2015. There is this website called; projectsemicolon.org and it has been one of my biggest supports for hope. 

Here is their vision, please read it and tell me how can you not support something as great as this: 

MISSION STATEMENT

PROJECT SEMICOLON IS A GLOBAL NON-PROFIT MOVEMENT DEDICATED TO PRESENTING HOPE AND LOVE FOR THOSE WHO ARE STRUGGLING WITH MENTAL ILLNESS, SUICIDE, ADDICTION AND SELF-INJURY. PROJECT SEMICOLON EXISTS TO ENCOURAGE, LOVE AND INSPIRE. 

VISION 

The vision is that together we can achieve lower suicide rates in the US and around the world; 

That together we can start a conversation about suicide, mental illness and addiction that can't be stopped;

We envision love and hope and we declare that hope is alive;

We envision a society that openly addresses the struggle with mental illness, suicide and addiction; 

We envision a conversation embraced by churches and addressed with love;

We envision a society that sees their value and embraces it; 

We envision a community that comes together and stands together in support of one another;

We envision a world where an escape is not found within drugs or alcohol;

We envision a world where self-destruction is no longer a escape to be used;

We envision a revolution of LOVE and declare that our stories are not over yet;

- Amy Bleuel

Founder & President 

  I don't know about you but that vision gives me chills and makes me tear up. This is what I am hoping for not just in my circle of friends and family but to anyone around us. We can and should want to be the change. Please help end the stigma of mental health and have a conversation even if it is hard. A hard conversation now is better than losing the opportunity to ever has a conversation with that person again. This post is to plead with anyone willing to read my blog to be aware of changes in your loved ones and love them unconditionally for we do not know the battle they are fighting within themselves but never be afraid to have that hard uncomfortable conversation. If anyone needs help with how to start that conversation or of resources to know more about mental health and suicide; I have posted a few that I have turned to and please always feel free to message me. 

This video above is so powerful!

Until Next Time..
     Whitney <3