I lost a friend today...
Not to moving to another state or some disease or even death but because I fell in love.
I know your think what?!?
I lost my best friend today because I fell in love with him. See the thing they don't tell you about falling in love with your best friend is that it only works if you both feel the same otherwise your friendship is doomed. Well here I am laying in bed c,rying unsure how these last 4 years I went from a scorned ex wife who only wanted a friend with benefits to falling in love with the guy everyone thinks is an asshole. And I don't just mean puppy love either. Its the kind that you look at him and smile stupidly for no reason but at the same time want to throttle him because for the umpteenth time has forgot a conversation you two have had. I loved everything about this man even if nobody understood or agreed I was willing to walk through fire for him. I am so thankful to him for all that he has taught me and the memories he has given me. Even if in the end we couldn't agree or see eye to eye I have never loved anyone in my life the way I loved him. I knew I could always count on him. Now I pray to God to heal my broken heart for it is broken beyond repair tonight for not just losing my best friend but the guy I hoped to plan my future with...the one I hoped to spend my 30th with in Europe.. The one I wanted to learn to ride along side with.. The one I wanted to run a business with.. And hike mountains with. Plans and dreams that will never happen no matter how hard I tried to put my feelings aside and I promise I did try.
Today I lost my love...my best friend.
Til Next Time..
Whitney <3
